Saturday, September 23, 2006

back frm dinner. aft starving the whole of today, i tink i kinda lost my appetite for dinner. hey, an ang ku kueh for breakfast, no lunch n 1/8th a mooncake for tea is really little hor. to me at least.

i really can lose weight. haha. i muz believe tt i can succeed. no carbo! atkins diet.. only had half a spoonful of tea leaves which had a tiny bit of brown rice mixed in it. tts my one n only dosage of carbo for the whole of today. yupz. then managed to not eat much of the 10-course dinner either. even por por noticed n tried to sneak tt extra fatty piece of peking duck onto my plate. n trix commented tt my plate still feels clean. bahx.

to luq: dun worry, i'm neither anorexic nor bulimic. dun worry yeah? i dun hv a fascination wif looking like a stick insect n neither do i fathom worshipping my toilet bowl wif puke, whatsoever.

anyway, it was grandpa's bdae. n he is older then zest! omg!! i tot zest max oldness le. hehehe. kidding lah. he's my ah ma de ah pa so muz show face n go. anyway when our families get together, it no longer is as fun as it used to be. no more ice-cream parties, late nite sleepovers n holiday trips. we hv grown up. so the idea of fun hv oso evolved.

now all the grown-ups ever tok abt is studies, grades n future prospects of their offsprings, us. n the high-flyers, olivia n alisa, will compare the standards of their respective schs, raffles girls vs dunman high. so-and-so having new campus. so-and-so recruiting top teachers. yadda yadda.

its alright if they juz tok among themselves. unwilling parties like me, will be drawn in juz for comparison so they will shine better. zzzz. big deal. poly then poly lor. not tt i'm doing horribly either. why shld i care less anyway.

i noe they love me. but reverse psycho isn't actually effective in my case. i need encouragement ppl!!

n suprisingly, por por hinted tt i'm slimmer. its been yrs since she started her: "everytime i see u, u seemed to hv grown sideways!" tis cld be a major turning pt! wow!! either tt or she was trying to brainwash me into eating tt fatty mush of meat. WHICH I DID NOT TOUCH. bravo!

anyway, home sweet home. no more superficial social engagements for a long while i guess. i dun wanna grow up! *wails* n i wan my prata!! *wails even louder!*