Monday, August 28, 2006

being a girl sucks sometimes. true, u hv loads of advantages. sometimes, too much advantages. but tt irritating time of the mth erases all the said advantages n turn them into the negative extreme. esp when u hv a whole load of responsibilies to handle n stress levels keeps mounting. ordinary horrible mood swings become emotional outbursts too scary to imagine.

i did things i wld nv hv tot i wld do in a million yrs... all today n all within mins of each other. pms pms pms.

outburst no. 1: hung up the phone on ting.
i nv, i repeat, nv, hang up even on my enemies. n i actually hung up on one of my most precious ppl ever?!?! i mean, i was pissed n all (meeting at 11am, she woke up at 11am.) but its not in my nature to hang up when someone is toking. furthermore, i didn't apologise. so shall do it here. so sorry ting ting.

outburst no. 2: cried on public transport.
funny bit was, i prob looked like i got dumped. well, NO!

to all on tt mrt: i was not getting dumped/rejected whatsoever. save all those glances of sympathy lah.. its trival.
to ting: sorry again dearie. thanks for ur concern n those lovely candles. (looking at them now..) n for spending the whole of today brightening my mood.
to cher: thanks for caring twice today.. helped me through both outbursts.. love u loads... hope u feel better too. jia you n all the best for ur confirm A accs paper! =)
to daddy: thanks for insisting on me bringing tissues. "how can a girl not hv tissues? take tis!" those came in handy while on tt mrt! hehe. n how cld i forget ur much needed transport hm?? love ya to bits!
to zhouxiang: thanks for nv failing to make me laugh wif ur corny "i-shoot-myself" jokes. ur lame. really. (i mean it in a nice n affectionate way.) haha. ur a nice guy. keep smiling yeah? glad to hear u won ur comp! keep it up. jia you jia you. =X
to jessica: hey dear, thanks for ur pick-me-up smses. ur ability to make me forget unhappy stuff is amazing. lookin forward to tmr n our singing session. hehe. *cuddles*
to amir: thanks for asking aft me. thanks for coming back early. thanks again.
to xueqin: my fav senior.. thanks for the call n the v concerned msn chat. ur crapping really made my day. love u so much. cya tmr too...
to zest: thank u most of all.. thanks so much for bearing wif my ramblings. i dun really cry in front of guys.. ur the first n lets make tt the last. haha.. n ur concern n worrying abt me waaay aft the incident left me really touched. dun fret yeah? i'll live up to my name n turn out fine.. =)

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funny start? well, i guess to understand, u gotta read on...

woke up to go temple. supposed to morning call ting at 8am. but she nv pick my call. not once, not twice, not 20 times. pissed, i called her hm n demanded her bro drag her out of bed. aft shouting "zong yu ken ting dian hua le ar? ni hao yi si wor!" (for my non-chi readers, its "finally wanna ans call le ar?") i hung up. tt was outburst 1. coz i hv nv ever hung up on someone before. no matter how much i dislike tt person. n ting was sooo apologetic. smsing me, saying "dui bu qi" (i'm sorry) countless of times, cutely offering to buy lunch n all. made me feel quite bad for being so unbearably rude.

on the mrt to bedok to meet cher, mz n suyee, i was upset by my camp stuff. so for some reason, i cried while talking on the phone to zest. on public transport, surrounded by strangers at 12pm lunch rush-hr! i muz hv looked pathetic. like some weird girl who got dumped by her bf. how intensely embarassing.

made it to bedok in one piece. snifflingly on the tissue daddy shuffed n demanded me to bring. thank god for it. can't possibly ask a stranger for tissue paper rite? ting bought my fav! strawberry milk tea. n she even shook it, so it was all frothy n well-mixed to show how bad she felt. its ok lah, i forgive u le.

while the rest studied, me n ting went chinatown for ktv! kster had members promo. buy at least one drink can sing till 9pm free. so we each ended up paying $8.50 n singing for 6hrs (3-9pm). for 2 ppl, tts a v long time.. we ended up singing some oldies like 1980 songs n even songs my F4!! oh, how yesteryear! sorethroat le lah... but singing really takes ur mind of all the probs of the real world. only the staff there really sucks n hv attitude prob! pls lah, chinatown hv kbox n partyworld too.. in order to stay ahead of competition, shldn't u hv better service?? at least smile back at us when we smile at u!! we r paying customers afterall!

aft singing, i bought another $10 worth of earrings. ahhh, my indulgence. so tt means i hv now finished spending all the extra money daddy snuck me... shhhh.. oh wells, i was feeling worse then crap today. n those money gave me higher spending power which contributed to making my day a lovely one ultimately.

n ting ting v aunty can? ok, wrong.. she's juz well loved. tts why hv alot of freebies n me, being her fortunate fren, got to partake in her spoils of free gifts n discounts.. so can't actually complain lah. haha. ur an aunty like jj. whee~

we had dinner along the streets of chinatown. i had tis springy noodles tt was awesome. its called 'kolo' mee. they cooked it by submerging it in bubbling, boiling water n the nxt instant into icy water. do tt a couple of times n the noodles become v elastic. haha. nice. then tried the fab dessert at tis roadside stall. yummy yummy. mine was sweet n ting's was bitter. haha. gui ling gao is bitter de ma.. tell her she dun believe. muz try for herself lor.. haha.

came hm aft dinner. was really late. morn le leh... n mommy had half a mind to not let daddy come pick me. how can?? its dark!! she can't let me walk hm alone.. haha. of course i noe mommy can't bear tt. so juz sweet-talk her lor.. once he had the green-light to pick his first-born who was 3hrs over curfew, daddy came faster then he ever did. (scared mommy change her mind ba. hehe.) in pjs n tiny slippers too... so touched. i love my daddy. coz he spoils me. haha.

but mommy was nice too. she nv nag at all! juz told me to shower n sleep early. so i kinda feel bad abt typing tis entry under the shelter of my blanket so she wun discover tt i'm not yet asleep! haha.

tis is a v long entry.. coz today was a really unique one. will rmbr it for yrs to come. oso, tis blog song is public affair by jessica simpson for all the ppl who hv asked me but i hv yet to reply. heard it today 5 times while roaming the streets. haha. didn't noe it was tt popular. i mean, i hv had it for ages liao. i noe, THEY ALL COPY ME! hah! shld be changing soon le lah. dun like songs tt r soo common n zx can't see tis skin. oh wells. soon lah. i promise.

thanks to all who made an originally attrocious day a wonderful one. all ur concern n sincerity really overwhelmed me. some of u got to noe through other means.. but still, nv fail to let me noe u care. i love u all. *muacks*