Thursday, July 20, 2006

tues had pacc test.. not v confident.. juz hope i can do reasonably well. took back itab grades. i went "pls pls pls let me pass.." then viola, i got 50. bloody hell. i was so proud tt my lowest grade ever in sp is an 80. n now, i hv a sad, barely-there pass. n for someone who uses the com on a daily basis since she was 12, its kinda depressing!

on wed, went wif jess, anna n serkee to go sign up for the 28th spd. had lunch at fc 5. n saw my tennis cutie. he was in jeans for once. wif oversized shirt n oversized bag. awwww.. i knew i shld hv eaten in pizza hut. lol.

aft sch went for spec seminar. was the usher n got to eat catered food. so party atmosphere can. haha. some of the sec sch ppl were taller then me. so intimidating lor. haha. n carolyn got the picture of christopher!! the chairman of photography club. honestly, it was only bcoz he was walking around in front of me the whole time which kept me frm falling asleep. haha. i sound v boy crazy i guess. but tts soo not true. haha.

then when the mc told us to stand up n intro ourselves to the ppl around us, i almost took tiffany's advice n tok to him. (which i didn't due to sheer lack of guts.) but thanks to dear carolyn, i guess now the whole of spse noe i find him cute. wif all tt pulling n shuffling! but she got him to pose for a pic anyway. *blushes* haha.

aft the talk, we went to marina sq, carl's junior for dinner. big big burger. then played abit of arcade, chatted n came hm really late. luckily i had zest to accompany me for 9/10th the way. poor jessica. sayang sayang k.

today was another dissapointing day. went for yoga. forgot lock. realised i bloody hell, forgot my hp too. tts not all.. the econs paper came back. n before you all start saying "its an A lah, dun complain." i wanna complain ALOT. 2 ppl achieved perfection. 15 ppl got the much-acclaimed 'distinction'!!! n me? a pathetic lousy grade. n its not coz i nv study. its coz i made 3 mrks worth of careless mistakes (it'll become 6 mrks when upon 100%) which wld hv given me my dist by quite a margin! sorry, but i'm juz v disgusted wif myself. totally. i mean, i prob deserve tis sucky grades coz i dun do tutorial, i skip lect. while the rest were all conscientious, model students. haiz.. well, u win some, u lose some.

my performance resembles the law of diminishing returns hur? i better salvage myself before i fall to a negative return. no more skipping lect. no more missing tuts. even if i hv to sit alone, i'll persevere n attend. i muz at least try to stay awake during v dry n boring 'speeches'!! tis is a rude awakening. the serious joy is back.

then was feeling like crap aft getting tt major shock so wanted to get hm real quick. met shafiq in the mrt n we chatted abt the gd old damai ppl. which made me forget the attrocities of today for a while. but when he left, i was moody again. n guess wat, while waiting for the bus, i was sandwiched between a damaian n a meridian. oh, the ironies of life. met mag... so happy! but gd things dun last.

i forgot my keys. so was stuck outside the hse, w/o a hp n v hungry. feeling like the world's biggest sucker. izzit me or has today gone horribly wrong???