Saturday, June 24, 2006

aft IDEA meeting wif zhouxiang, i went k-box at cine wif cher n ting. somehow, almost all the songs i came across cld relate n remind me of HIM (only ting n cher noe ba.. so alisa, dun sprout nonsense!) and the wonderful times we shared together.. even juz as simple, innocent frens.

the songs we sang, the lyrics he repeated n the wrds i wanted to say. i guess i wun ever hv the opportunity to express myself tt blatantly to him anymore. now tt he no longer belongs to me. if he ever belonged to me in the first place.

we started wif rainie's ai mei (ambiguious relationship) which led me to feel doubtful n uncertain abt out relationship. its something more than frens but not yet lovers. i dunno abt him but i sure feel tt way. then li xiang qing ren (ideal lover) cld not hv described him better. aft tt had a couple of typical love songs then jolin's ni hai ai wo ma... tis was the last straw. i mean, gone were the days where we spontaneously flirted (verbally of course) n actually felt gd n open abt it. times i'll always miss. than the phrase frm jj's song "zhi you ni sha jiao hui rang wo wei xiao" left me wif bitter-sweet feelings.. we sang somemore michael learns to rock - daddy's fav n the first band i ever knew.. ahhh, the fond memories.

cld it hv been great? wld we ever find out?
we r nothing but familiar strangers.
no more, no less.
i swear i'll stop tinking. i can't. i juz can't. n now, i can't even fall asleep. i'm such a loser.