Sunday, May 07, 2006

he has found a gf. i shld be happy for him.. but no matter how hard i fight, my eyes feel moist, my mouth feels sour, my throat feels tight n my chest hurts.

i tot i hv gotten over him already. n tt nothing he says or does can affect me in such a way anymore. but ironically, the more i try to distant myself n run away, the more i wanna look back.. the times we had so v long ago still remains painfully fresh.

i eat. alot. hoping to numb the pain. it used to wrk but now, it has failed. shopping today has too lost its kick. i'm spending for the mere sake to spending. all my energy seems to hv been sapped. i'm in no mood to do anything.

like a walking zombie in a nightmare tt seems to ebb in my sub-conciousness.