Sunday, April 16, 2006

cls outing on within the first week of meeting. nv hv i met a cls tt "on-the-ball". haha. we r already planning cls t-shirt n hol chalet. omg.

ok, tt was sorta random... but i dunno why i feel kinda empty now. is tis wat u get when the person u like cuts himself away frm u? when u make things so plain n obvious but yet he still seems oblivious. true or fake i dunno. mayb i'm juz lying to myself.

friendships like everything else is not tt concrete and everlasting as i tot it to be. w/o significant effort, we'll all drift apart juz like me n tt certain someone. i wonder, if i told u how i felt then, wld things now be any diff? or wld u juz run away. too far n fast tt i can't catch up.

ur lying when u say we r not strangers. coz juz how much do u noe of me n vice-versa? i dun care if u read tis. heck, i dun noe if u even bother. (ps. the reason why i put my blog add in my msn is bcoz of u.) i juz wan u to noe tt i value u.. n our past.. if only time cld turn back. mayb i wld hv put a stop to all tis. n made things wrk out. then, perhaps i wun be living in a state of regret now.

if really, u did read tis n choose to ignore it, then hv nothing more to say. take care my lifelong friend. .evol ym erac ekat

i'll be strong. i still want my perfect GPA n i still hv dreams of tt perfect someone. tt someone i tot was u till i realised how wrong n foolishly blind i was.