Thursday, November 03, 2005

i can't stand it. of my mom is not going through menopause now, i really dread the day when she does!! how can anyone be capable of such temper, biasness n drastic mood-swings?? for everybody who tink i'm lucky. tink again.

yes, i'm most prob spoilt but who's fault is tt? yes, i was born wif a sliver spoon in my mouth. everything i wan, i have... n now, poor me at the age of 17 hv to suddenly start doing hsewrk. do le, still kenna scolding, kenna criticize. idiot lah. say i got no initiative, wash plates, dunno how to go dry them. pls lah, i wash everybody's plates! even touch icky saliva on the spoons. when i take a break n read newspaper, NEWSPAPER, get nagged at coz i'm 'lazing' around. wat abt alisa? she was sitting on sofa so shiok shiok reading magazine tabloids, watching mtv, throwing cushions everywhere n nobody so disturb her. trixie, supposedly studying for Os so dun need to do hsewrk. so unfair! she oso got eat, got wear, got make mess yet dun hv to clean up n wash n dry! fine, everybody got impt stuff to do n my life is meant to revolve around everybody, pick up aft them n keep them happy. wtf!

esp daddy. chuck all his washing on me, make such a BIG fuss abt washing car, go my rm watch soccer then complain here, complain there. say my rm messy, say my tv spoil, say i dun help out. for goodness sake, open ur eyes lah. who is the one tt is not helping out?? who is the one tt can't be bothered. still act so high-and-mighty!! no thank u, no praise when i do the right things. only ever ready to yell n demoralize me when i fault. u go all sacarstic when i demand a teeny bit of recognition: "so, do u wan a trophy for doing tt?"

i fold clothes, mommy nag tt i nv spilt the stack into its respective owners, excuse me, when u fold, u oso nv spilt. i'm juz following ur example. like tt oso wrong. tok to u, u ignore then when we give u cold shoulder u get all offended. aren't we all human? dun we all deserve a basic amt of respect? wth.

want more examples of mom's downright discrimination? alisa gets to go out till sooo late everyday n she's only sec 1. u dun give a hoot. i come back mins aft curfew, get banned frm alot of things. where's the logic? we stand behind u n u step in our toes, its our fault tt we dunno how to siam. u stand behind n we step on ur toes, we get scolded for not looking where we put our feet. its the same scenerio but wif diff consequence. idiot idiot.

ya, i noe u wrk hard to give us a gd life, wif my weekly facials n eveything. but somehow i feel tt tis is juz u making up for all the times u made me upset. gives u the right to emotionally backmail me bcoz u apparently did so much for me n tt i shld be eternally grateful coz u nv had these when u were a kid. pls lah, we r frm a diff generation. u cld study n wrk then bcoz the syllabus was so much less demanding. juz bcoz ppl say u look young n we look like sis, doesn't mean tt our thinking is the same n doesn't mean tt the way we run our individual lifes r similar.

if u dun understand me, admit it. dun pretend tt u do coz u jolly well dun!

~ glass-eyed princess