Sunday, September 25, 2005

nightmares. headache. fearful.

my life is falling apart. i sense tis entry to be a long n draggy one but bear wif me pls. all thanks to my ct, ms sue who called my mom, mommy cancel my haach facial n new indo slimming thingy so i can hv more time wif my bks! tis is not fair... i was soo looking forward to tis. =( pls lah, the last thing i need now is a nervous breakdown bcoz of insufficient leisure n relaxation! yes, i noe i'm in tis crunch situation coz i nv start mugging earlier but now tt my academic life is trashed, muz my social life be snatched away too??

ya, everyone is concerned abt me but why can't they mind their own business? i already noe how patheic i'm w/o them having to rub it in. although mom rescheduled my appt to a day after my promos, i'm juz so irritated tt these grown-ups tink they r so damn superior to come n take over my life wif zero consideration abt how i feel abt it.

its juz days to my doom n i feel like giving up. mayb the sooner it comes, the better. tt way, i can juz get tis hell of a time overn done wif but it still sucks as part of me want more time!! i'm so tired n grouchy frm the lack of slp n of over-bearing teachers who 'care' too much tt i wanna cry. (i noe i sound v ungrateful but for once, juz once, leave my alone. i'll do wat i can, all i can to try rescue myself frm the jaws of hell.) if u can't help, bug off. dun make things worse.

go away. leave me here alone to wallow in self-pity. let me rot n die. get lost. SHOO! =(

*my life is a wreck, a big, fat mess all bcoz i over-estimated my self n made the biggest mistake of my life - to choose a jc over a poly* miserable, lost, disillusioned n deluded.

n the last thing i need is more distractions...
struggling to find myself in tis big big world. =(