Wednesday, September 21, 2005

hey, ms sue called my mom today leh. haiz... my teacher hasn't called my parents since like pri 3? tis is a disgrace lah. i noe my results suck. my attitude suck. my life suck but its now worst. doubly, triply worse. i'm v tired. really feel like giving up. i mean, i'm in my prime. i shldn't b wasting it. but like an ee say, its either i buck up is 14 days or regret for the rest of my life. poly really shldn't b an option at all (not tt i've anything against poly - many of my best frens r there. but since i made tis decision, i muz strive to live wif it. afterall, its my choices tt shape my future. haha.)

like yingjie keep singing "there can be miracles..." i hope for a miracle too. desperately need it lah. but i so suay how to experience a miracle sia. =(

exerpt of sms conversation wif my mom:-
mom: baby, ms sue called me to say u've not been putting in enough effort. i buy for u so many ref bks why u nv use? i'm sick n at hm now so can't nag u. i can only hope u noe wat u're doing.
me: i'm really sorry to hv disappointed u. i did try but i guess it wasn't hard enough. i'll juz hv to live wif the consequences. sorry again. =(
(waited for a long time...)
mom: no dear, u didn't disappoint me. but at least promise u'll try? it u can't make it, we'll juz find some other way out. mayb jc is juz not suitable for u.
me: thanks for everything. i shld b leaving le. juz need to collect my eom. cya soon.
mom: do u need me to fetch??
me: no need lah. sch so near hm only. u're sick so dun run around. take care.
mom: take care dear. cya soon. loving u.

gosh, when i'm copying tis, my mom suddenly dun seem tt much of a tyrant afterall. considering she nv even chide me!! haha. but i mustn't step over the line n let her down. i'll buck up frm now. i promise. mayb, juz mayb, there is still a tiny ray of hope. *prays*

oh, an ee agreed to become e math rep le. haha. rmbr to collect mock promo papers frm photocopy shop yeah? cheerios.